This one is deep...

Have you ever wondered "why did this have to happen to me?" Or "Why do other it better then me?" "Does God really think I'm stronger, so there for I'm poor?" "Is there really a 'true' religion?" Growing up in the Mormon church, I was taught that it was the real, true church, and all others had bits and pieces, but not the whole pie. Many religions are similar to this, I was told by a Jehovah's Witness, at the age of 8, that I was going to hell for being a Mormon. Well there is one church that says you should explore other religions, and that's the Catholics. Maybe they are the real deal?

Ok, in saying all this above, I'm not by any means saying that the Book of Mormon is a bunch of bull shit, Jews must die, and that Quanza isn't a real holiday, but I am saying that I don't think you should have to follow a bunch of "rules" to achieve enternal glory. I'm not saying go out and cheat on your spouse, or kill that co-worker (we all have one), But, if you want to have a cup of coffee, I think you should have that right. Or smoke a cigerette (though I don't recommend that) sure, induldge in glass of wine or throw back a couple cold ones while watching the game? Sure, why not.

Now with that you might say.. "But what about laws?" Laws are ment to keep order. I don't think 10 yr olds should be drinking whiskey. Or 5 yr olds driving. You have to be resonable there. But you should be able to make life choice, without having to be punished in a religious sense. I believe in god, yes. But, I'm going to live my life the way I want and let him decide if I've lead a good life or bad life. I don't think it's right to judge people either. A great man once said, "Only God can judge me" That man was Tupac, and I'm reffering to his song, yes. A great song it is, and a great man he was. He called himself Machiavelli da Don some times, reffering to Niccolo Machiavelli, the Italian philospher. He also wrote plays, and was a diplomate, but he was more known for is Ideas on the way of life, and how things should be to sustain a perfect living enviornment. Similar to the rightings of Locke. I won't plunge into that, cuz I could go on and on, but if you have the chance, look him up.

Now on to more useless bits of things to think about.. Like the fact if you want world peace? We gotta find peace, and end the war in the streets. To have peace, you must have war. So.. You might be thinking "Build more jails?" Yes, and push harder to keep those who have done wrong locked up. It's too easy in todays world to get out of jail once you have been put in. I'm not talking about those who have been drunk driving for the first time, or those who smashed up a few mailboxes cuz they were stupid teenagers. I'm talking about those who are a fifth time voilent offender, or have been busted for drugs for the second time, not third. To keep things clean, you have to shorten the leash.

So now you think I'm pretty crazy, can't make up my mind and am all over, but everything I have said is true, and something big to think about. So on another note, the Vikings beat the Eagles, yay. And now I'm off.

The end to a new begining.

Well, it's December 28th 2010 already. In a few days it will 2011, this year has gone by pretty fast I must say. A lot has happened, more then I care to admit. The Ute's when 10-2 in reg season, only to get the Vegas Bowl and totally choking it up hard core vs Boise State. Better luck next year I guess. The Vikings in one month had Randy Moss, started working better as a team.. then released Randy Moss. Shortly after the fired Brad Childress. Brett Favre admited to leaving the voice mails, and ended his most consuctive starts. And the big three in Lebron, Dwayne, and Chris in Miami finally getting their rytheme going, people are starting to be scarred of that team from Miami.

So enough about sports, let's talk about me. What have I done? Nothing really... I've had 4 different jobs, one was seasonal. I've moved out and moved back in. I've been to jail for something that wasn't my fault. I haven't been pulled over, still drug free, and not addicted to anything but starburst and the stupid internet. I'm meeting new people and actually finding that joy I had at the begining of the year. I've accepted the fact I will never find that perfect song, cuz no matter how hard I look, I always ended up frustraited. I started watching Glee and actually like it. I've seen more movies in theaters this year then I have in the rest of my life combined. My favorite is undecided as their are so many that were fantastic. I have two kittens now, about 4 months old. They didn't like my dog at first but now they are almost best friends. I've gotten somewhat closer with my mom, and me and dad are closer then ever. We can relate to a lot, cuz my life now is what his life was kinda. We have more to talk about when we spend our days fishing or just sitting at home hanging out. There is so much more I could write but I don't know what to say. So for now I finish this, maybe to add another post to it in a few days.

Wow

It's been awhile I must say. I didn't really think I'd ever post again to be competely honest. But I feel that I have to now.

What to say, the last few months have been anything but relaxing. I've had three different jobs, I moved out of my parents on a prayer, and I'm yet again.. finding myself. Just when you think you know who you truely are, you find out you know nothing at all and start all over again from square one. Well now I'm kind of.. let's say lost. Not completely, but I don't really know who I am or who I want to be. That's kind of a bad thing to me, but I'm only 19, almost 20, so it's not like life threating as of this moment in time. I don't think we ever figure "life" out. I don't think you're supposed. I just think you wake up in the morning and worry about that day, nothing more, because tomorrow will bring something new. Yes it's ok to have goals and lists, but don't waste your life on them, or you'll miss what the moment brings to the table. So live your life and be thankful for what you do have,

Ok so I mention three different jobs. Well the first of these is Dollar Tree. It wasn't a terrible job at all, but I did quit because I thought I was going on a Mormon mission, maybe if I hadn't had those thoughts, I'd still be at that job today, I wouldn't be living where I am now, and my life would infact, be different. But things happen for a reason I guess. Second job was working for the Davis School District summer maitenance crew, which means.. I mowed lawns. Not that exciting but I did love it and the people I worked with. Well I prolly would have kept this job until the grass quit growing if I hadn't done something really stupid. So here's a lil story. Me and mom didn't really get along. I thought she was evil, bitchy, and never let me do what I wanted. Well now I know that's just the price to pay while living under your parents roof. I learned this the hard way by impulsivly moving out and moving in with my "girl friend" (more on this later.) Anyway, now I realize that I took for granted alot, but we have worked past this and they gave me a car. How nice.. right? Well moving out made me have to quit due to lack of transportation and the fact it was 80 miles a day in gas, that I didn't have money for. Ok so the third job I have come to like. It's bussing tables at Hidden Valley Country Club. It's pretty fucking awesome most of the time. The pay is way worth it and the people I work with are awesome. I think this job will last a while (hopefully).

Ok, so I mentioned I moved out. I touched on that a little but let's put some detail into it. So I'm living with my girlfriend.... Which this is a little complicated situtation. Well not really, on the outside everything thing seems perfect, but in reality.. it's not. I'm not really happy.. I mean, yes I like her as a friend and it's fun hanging out with her, and I do care about her and wouldn't want to see anything happen, but... I don't know how to explain it. It's been... 3 months since we started dating and she is head over hills gaga in love with me, get's mad cuz I won't show affection, we fight constantly, ugghjfdsklajfkla;jfiopqekelm;kla;fjs. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. I've pretty much lost most of friends cuz of this girl, (maybe they weren't true friends) And.. I don't know.. Life just doesn't really make sense right now. I mean I look at everything I had living with my parents and now it's like.. I have nothing. I've taken on so much shit, it's wearing me down, not just mentaly but physically as well. I feel 30, not 19. I'm still a teenager.. I should be having fun, not worrying about the things I'm worrying about right now. And I can't talk to her about it, cuz we don't really talk about things like we should, and I know she will just blow it up and bad things will happen and I will be stuck wondering what the fuck to do. This is why I'm yet again finding out who I really am. Who is the real Travis Herion and where has he gone. I miss him. I don't feel like myself at all. I don't know. Now I'm at a mental block.. yay.

Ugh Idk

As I find myself with this sudden change of heart I find a lot of interesting things happen. People that I haven't talked to in almost 5 years talking to me, the temptation to do the wrong things ( those who know anything of the Mormon religion would know what I'm talking about) And people asking me questions that I honestly don't have answers for. "Why are you going on a mission?" "Why did you go back, thought you hated mormons?" And then people making comments like "You're just going to waste two years of your life".. Here's what I have to say to all that. I'm looking for answers... I think I've been looking in all the wrong places. I need to do this to find out things... Find out if this is what will make me happy.. Ya it could be a waste.. So far I've been the happiest I've ever been in my life and I'm finding out who my true friends are. Those who have stuck by me have been the biggest support. I know it's only been a week but it means a lot to know that I will have people who are for my decisions I make in life, and not all are family related. The most interesting one would be.. Alex.. My ex. I've talked about her in blogs past, and my friends who know me the best know that I really did fall in love with here even though I was only 18. True love knows no age as they really say. Well Alex is not mormon.. but I told her about my change of heart and that I'm going to go on a mission and she said "I'll write every week" It really means a lot, as I still see her as my best friend (yes I know.. some people just don't get it but it makes sense to me and that's all that matters in the end.) Nothing can change my mind though. I'm prepairing to go and should be out of here by the end of the year.

I've been doing a lot of music searching lately, actually looking at newerish stuff that has been coming out. I was really impressed with Eminem's CD, Relapse, that of course I got his CD that just came out not but a couple weeks ago, Recovery, and OMG talk about intense. I knew he was lyrically gifted but.. dang.. It blew me away. That a song I stumbled across called "Drop The World" Lil Wayne ft. the one and only Eminem. He's new CD is kinda the same message as Relaspe.. and the message I think it is is that he wants out of Rap, hence the long break, but can't cuz he keeps getting dragged back in. It's kind of sad if you see it from that point, because you can kinda see the struggled depending on the song. "Love the Way You Lie" Ft. Rihanna caught me a lil and reminded me the past. Weird how some songs do that, ya? Anyway other songs I've found were mainly on the Songs Of The World Cup, "Victory" by R. Kelly "Waka Waka" by Shakira just to name a few. I'm also semi in love with Katie Perry's "California Girls" Even if it is a bit.. girly "hey look at me" slutish.. *coughs* type of song. Te Amo by Rihanna was also one I found to be well done. This list could go on for days but I will leave it at that and explain the new bands I found.. prolly sometime tomorrow if not for sure Sunday.. (late) As I will be worn out from everything I am doing Saturday and happen to be going fishing with my dad that evening.

I know of only like.. 3 ppl that read this honestly and with that being said I'm going to ahead and just let my fingers fly right here and see what happens. I've always wanted to do something like this.. You never really know what you will type. It's just one of those things that I can let my mind wonder and still type something that actually makes a lil bit of sense to myself.

I know I'm making the right decision in going on a mission. I think it's what I need to do to find what I'm really looking for in life.. Which I think that thing is personal happiniess. I really haven't happy with myself in the past. Things in my life have been rough to say the least. I've grown up having to play the "father figure" for my brother with my dad being gone so much. Now that he is home more often I kept that role and now my relationship with my brother has been.. well pretty shitty. It has it's good days and bad like everything else in life but most of the time it isn't that pretty. I think me going on a mission will set and example for him as to what kind of person he will want to be in life. I also think it will fix my relationship with my mom. Me and her don't really get along that great and have yelling matches that I'm pretty sure most ppl would call the cops for if they ever heard. My dad is the one that will take me leaving the hardest I think. Me and him have this bond that really.. I can't explain. We just understand each other without the other one having to say a word. He is really my best friend and biggest mentor. I don't know what I would do with out him in my life. He has taught me so much and I learn more with each passing day. My grandparents are another big infulence in my life. They are the kindest ppl I know and the ones who will bend over backwards for those that are closest to them. I love my family so much.. It's been a long time since I've said that. And I mean it. I'm going to leave this post on that high note.

Sudden Change Of Heart

So I went camping this last week with the priest of the ward I live in. I myself am a priest and have the Aaronic priest hood. Well this trip didn't really go as planned. We didn't camp were we wanted and we only did one hike we wanted to do. We ended up spending about an hour at my grandparents trying to figure out were to camp next. We didn't really wanna camp somewhere, then break camp and camp somewhere the final night. So we found a spot with their help and all was well. We even came back there after our first hike and had lunch. They had a table and everything waiting all we had to do was cook the burgers and brats we had packed. I love them so much. Well while there my grandma had asked me an interesting question. "Are you going on a mission?" Well I told her I'm undecided and that I had to think about it, but this question didn't leave my mind. Well the next day we were supposed to go through another set of slot canyons.. well that wasn't happening with clouds in the sky. A rain storm could make that for a very bad day. Well we stopped in Tory, the last gas station before you get to Capitol Reef where the hike was supposed to take place, and there was this mini hiking store. Darren, one of our leaders, had gone into the store to ask the person that worked there if there was another hike we could do instead of the slot canyon hike we had orginally planned. She said "well there is Sulfer Creek, which is through water about 75% of the times." Her ideas she threw out didn't sound as fun, so we asked more about this Sulfer Creek, she gave us a map and told us everything we needed to know even the part about another vehical on the other side of trail. The hike it self was about 5 miles long, and included every rock knonw to man, Sulfer rock walls, red rock walls.. it was amazing. We even saw some ancient lizard tracks that were awesome. Well when the water hit it made for and even more amazing hike, and ducked down into some of the most beautiful, nature carved rock you have ever seen. We even took a shower in a water fall. Well when you see all the natural made landscape and the ancient lizard tracks it makes you wonder. So conversation of Creation came up. How God created the world in 6 days? 6 god days is like.. 6 thousand years, and there was prolly time inbetween each creation right? Well we finally decided that God had created the earth and inhabbit it with creaters. These creaters evolved until God seen the perfect one to put a spirit in, which became Adam and Eve. Then we did some more math. If you take the time from Adam and Eve, the time God came to earth, To the time we were born, it's been about 13,000 years since the earth was created. That's a long time.. and then you have forever after we die.. which when you think about it it's a lot to take in. This kind renewed my faith in the Mormon church.

Well after all this creation talk, the camp fire that night we had a lil.. closing meeting were everyone would share a thought. Something they were thinking about or something they loved about the camp. Our Bishop spoke first and gave some interesting advice. He told the group about our "math" since most everyone wasn't part of that convo and told us about how our choices prepare us for the furture. Everything we do reflects on our person. Then he talked about happieness.. what makes us really happy. He talked about quick fixes, then he talked about the spirit and the gospel and compaired the too. Quick fixes only make you happy for a short period of time and the gospel makes you happy all the time, having there spirit there guiding and watching over you. That hit me like a sack of rocks and I just knew what he was saying was right. So then It was my turn as we went in a circle and I had just so happened to be sitting by him. I knew I was gonna be first or last.. kinda on the spot either way. What else is knew. So I spoke.. I didn't really know what I was saying. I reflect on it and it was the spirit that spoke for me. I remember back to a song, Lost by Gorilla Zoe. The first lyrics are, "Walking around, looking for a way, when no one tells me which way to go, caught up in a world, a laberaith a maze, where yes ma'am could eaisly mean no, I ask them no questions cuz they give me no answers, following the wise but their walking in pampers, give me a cigerate, smoking my cancer, it treats the pain away but I still have no answer." After I said that I thought.. that's how my life has been for like.. since I dropped out of highschool. I've been lost and don't know what to do. So I ended my though and ppl moved on. Most just told their fav part of the camp, til My leader Matt came up. He said a lot. He talked about something my Bishop had mentioned.. Choices you make. He talked his wife now, how if had not gone on a mission.. he wouldn't have had a chance.. it was something she wanted in a husband. He talked about his friends.. had he not gone on a mission he would have partied like they do. He talked about his family.. had he not gone on a mission they woulda not been the family they are today. Him being the real only member, leads his family. He just said "Everything good in my life came from my mission." Bishop said the same thing.. As did Darren.. As did Wayne, Chad's father.

So the next morning we woke up and packed. I rode with Matt in his Pilot with 6 others and we watched Arrested Development for half the ride. I wasn't focused on the show.. mainly cuz I could only hear and not see it, being in the front, but was having casual convo with Matt. As we came outta Nephi I saw the semi trailer with the words, "Jesus Christ is our God.. Not a swear word." When I saw that it hit me.. I need to go on a mission. I thought about that for the next hour, and finally decided I needed to tell someone. So I told Matt. "I'm going to go on a mission." He was shocked as I thought he would be. Him, Bishop and Darren had been talking about this exact thing just that morning. "Travis needs to go one a mission." I knew it was the right thing as I've never been happier. Right now I feel on top of the world. Nothing can de-rail me. Maybe this is the answer I've been looking for. Maybe the Church is true after all. I started reading the Book of Mormon.. something I should have been doing regularly and I'm half way through only reading one day and realize more and more that I need to be teaching these words.. words of God. I guess the church is true. As much as I doubted it in the past, I realize now the trueness of the Gospel, how happy it can make me.

After making this decision I will probably lose a lot of friends. I'm ready for that. I will probably be challegned with temptation.. people telling me not to go and what not. I know that It's Satan trying to get me to not go. I know it's were I need to be. I'm ready to start a new. I'm ready for whatever this decision will bring. I'll be gone 2 years but that is nothing compaired to forever.

I'm ready to go and nothing will change my mind. I've realized I need to do this to find answers. Hopefully it's what I'm looking for. For any who read this and need advice or have questions. Hit my email up. dayum_ninja@yahoo.com

Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore they speak the words of Christ; wherefore I say unto you, feast upon the words of Christ for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things which ye should do.

June 16th 2010. I have been 19 now for 4 months and ten days. Feels like 4 years and 10 months. Work ultimately.. sucks. More drama then a highschool. It's storming right now.. thought you should know. LA beat up on Boston last night, Boise State is becoming a member of the MWC and Utah is more then likely going to join the ranks of the Pac-10 (12). The World Cup has started and there has been a lot of surprises so far. I applied for a job working on an oil rig in North Dakota. It's hard work but 26 weeks a year making 100k+.. I'd be stupid not to. Life with my family is only get worse as the days go buy. Doubt me and mom will ever have a decent convo together. Can't wait to leave next week and leave things behind for a change. No worries of any kind. I've started this thing that has help me with my problems. I write them down on a piece of paper, make that paper into an air plane, then toss them off the Mountain when I go up Farmington Canyon. You can almost feel them fly away. It's kinda cool and I'm going to make it a weekly thing. I told my friend this and she said now I am truely an artist. Thinking outside the box was always something I was good at. So I know this thing is really short and has been all over the place but I'm calling it good. I'll do a longer one tomorrow.

Friday the 30th

Ok so four months into the new year already, wow has time flown. A lot has already happened actually, I took a math class, have a job (sorta, I'm only working on average 12 hours a week) I've re-evaulated my friends, signed up for a career-choice class? (Guess that's the words I'd use) And all in all things are looking up. I'm actually happy with my life (Even with last nights rant about true friends, I still have the one I can trust with my life, that's all I need.) So what will the rest of the year hold in store? Who knows. Summer is almost here (Even though the weather isn't showing it.) I've been fishing 3 times and golfing twice, been to the driving range 5 times, played 3 pick up games of soccer, started playing basketball again and Idk, just feel like.. happy? I still have moments of sadness and moments of were I might take a glimps of the past but for the most part I live my life and don't look back. Living in the past takes away from the present. I've decided that whatever happens has a good reason. I've found good in all the bad things of my past and now have a very optimistic out look on things. Oh I started working out again to and have gained 5 lbs just like that, I feel sooo much better and have got back onto a healthy eating plan and ja;jsfkl AHH! ya. Anyway remember, live life, go big and don't hold back, don't be affraid to take a risk and always look for those signs of change.

Dueces

So.. Ya

I orginally was not going to type up something tonight, but as I went to turn on a movie I thought I prolly should or I might not never sleep. Lately I've been thinking a lot about true friends. What a true would and would not do. It's interesting what I've come up with, examples of said things are like, True friend wouldn't like or betray you. A true would have you're back and stand behind you no matter what. A true would respect you and be loyal, not treat you one way here and one way there. True friends are hard to find. Who you chose to be around you says a lot about who you are. Even if you are shy and don't act out, sheltered or shaded, your friends show you who you are, who you would trust. I can tell a lot about people by their friends. Trust.. another thing I've been thinking about. Trust means putting faith in something hoping that you will get something in return whatever said something maybe.. correct? It's hard to trust people in todays world. There is a rapper, by the name of T.I. who wasn't allowed to visit this elementry school due to his recent conviction of felony. That just shows how much image means. Ben Rothelessburg, QB of the Pitsburg Steelers, suspended 6 games for sexual assualt charges, his rep is shattered, people may have looked past his other screw ups, but he done screwed up for the last time. Same thing with Magic Johnson, Kobe Bryant, Lindsy Lohan, any average person who fucks up in front of their family, friends. They get punished. Trust is lost. How can you respect someone who doesn't respect themselves? I could go on but what's the point? If you disected it, you find I've have just repeated myself but in different words.

My solution? Don't place your trust so easily, find out what a person is worth, no matter the cost. Even if you get hurt, it's worth it to have someone by yourside you know you can place your full trust in. It's like in the movie Tokyo Drift, Han lets the kid drive his Skyline, all decked out, Prolly worth 100 grand (just throwing a number out there.) He knew what was gonna happen, he knew the kid would wreck it, but he did it anyway, just to test his trust, and they became good friends. I'm not saying that you personally have to do this, but I'm saying that you have to be willing to take a risk to see if someone is trusty worthy of you time and respect. Don't waste time on the fakes and pretends, don't waste time trying to become well known and popular, don't lower your moral standerds, don't lose your self respect. Yes I know I said do anything at all costs, but you have to draw the line somewhere, being something your not to find out what someone is worth defeats the purpose, if it comes to that then you know they aren't worth it.

This prolly made no sense and my mind is still going a million miles an hour (if you see another post in 3 hours you'll understand) And I probably won't sleep tonight but I said what I thought needed to be said.

Dueces

Ok so like it's 5 am, I haven't been to sleep, so I thought I'd type up a post.

As some of you might know the NFL draft was this weekend and I'm upset with the Vikings choices. They should have taken Jimmy Clausen first round instead of trading their picks like idiots. This whole Farve drama bs is starting to annoy me, the man has retired... twice. Hells bells man he choked it the end of the season. Jackson and Rosenfeld just aren't that good. If you ask me they should have at least drafted McCoy. The Vikings have this awesome team and no QB. All I'm saying is they messed up.

Ok so now why am I up at this ungodly hour typing this blog? Well there are prolly a couple reasons but none really matter as much as the last so I won't get into that.

Did you hear Ben Rothlesburg was banned for the Pittsburgh Zoo?!?! It's the white version of Kobe Bryant.

Obama has been kinda quiet the last few weeks.. shocking fact for an overrated president (not).

Some redneck hill billy cover boy won the power ball this past week of 258 mill. 10th biggest in the lotteries history. He said the main thing to pay back his friend for his truck, catch up his bills.. and... wait for it.. see a dentist about finding his "2 front teeth".. (dunno about you, but it sure as hell ain't Christmas) Tehehe...

The Iceland Volcano has finally calmed and people in Europe can breath again!

Lindsey Lohan was fired from film she was working on.

And finally, reports say that I have began the hunt for a new job. I'm finding my current one to be to much of a love hate relationship.. With that, I'm out. Dueces

3:20 am

So it's 3 am and I'm up typing a blog... Go me. I've prolly been up for about.. Oh Idk a long ass time right now, I lost count of how long I just know a long time. Contemplating things and wondering why I'm contemplating them. I know that makes so much sense.. but hey. It's just been weird. I feel weird. Blast from the past type of thing. I just.. Idk what to do from here. I feel so alone, like it's me against the world and all eyes are on me, always runnin, living that ghetto gospel while thinking about that thugz mansion, knowing for fact that thugs get lonely too, even with that california love, but still.. Life goes on. Ok so after mashing together like.. half a dozen or more Tupac song titles I'm still were I was before I starting typing.. no where.

So in sports news, Harvey Unga (Player for Byu football team) has withdrawn from Byu due to something that has to with the honor code? I don't remember the whole story and don't feel like looking it up either.

The Vikings are yet again undecided on who to draft in the first round. With this season not having a salery cap, Things have already been shaken. With the top four teams automatically losing and unrestricted free agent, Minn lost RB Chester Taylor and a shot at signing LaDamian Tomlinson. Which when I read that my first thought was, Oh My God. LT and AP on the same team? Then if they happened to Draft Tebow, or Farve decides to come back (Hell even if Jackson ends up starting) That would have been one badass team to deal with next season. But if wishes were fishes my life would be perfect. So I'm not even going to coment on who the Vikings are going to draft because until it's time for the Vikings to pick, no one really knows.

I guess I should mention basketball because it is the playoffs. The Jazz Win in a stunning victory lead by Lebron James Jr, Mr Deron Williams himself in a 114-111 match @ DENVER. Can you say oh shit? And with no suprise the Cavs beat the bulls in a not so close score of 112-102. Cavs go up 2-0 with a possible 4-0 sweap (which they seam to do a lot in the first round. All hail King James). And the Jazz tie it up as they head to Utah were they might have a chance to play LA next round if they can win it at home.

I really thought this would be longer but I'm just not in the mood to type so hopefully this fills the void till a such time when I do type that novel. toodles

Day 3 (Which is really post three but third day in a row... wow..)

So I read my other two post again just to wonder what I've already pointed out and realized that there are a lot of grammatical errors.. intstead of going back and fixing them I'm just gonna for warn people that there will prolly be errors in this and if you wanna point it out to my message me @ dayum_ninja@yahoo.com.

So today while doing a sudoku puzzle and reading the news paper I realized why I stopped watching the news and reading the news paper.. Because it's the same shit over and over. This person got shot, this place got robbed, Yada yada yada. I mean sometimes there will be something happy like something great that someone in the state did or w/e but man.. no wonder people are depressed. There is nothing going right in the world. Then I think back to world news and stuff like Britian going to ban the word "obesity" in schools because some kids are getting offended. And then the Earthquake in China? I mean hell.. Idk, my opinion on the media is a... well lets not go there. It's messed up and we'll leave it at that.

Oh fun fact.. Kasey Khane will be driving for Hendrick motorsports in the 2012 season so I've heard.. Like that team needs anymore good drivers. Lolz. I am a fan of Martin myself but Hendrick went 1, 2, 3 ( I think ) in the final cup standings this last season.

Anyone this was a short post and I realized that all my others have been about as short.. oh well. Maybe this is the thing I've been looking for complete peace in life? :s

Day 2

This post came alot sooner then I thought ( less then 24 hours) But, Idk I've got a lot on my mind right now and figured why not put it out here for those who stumble across this to read.

So this weekend I'm going to a formal with a friend.. who happens to be and ex. I'm kinda still really nervous about this because we haven't hung out in like 2 months and before she texted me and asked if I wanted to go it had been a couple weeks before we had even texted each other. Well we hung out ish early Sunday morning.. Well she called me and asked if I would talk to her while she drove home cuz she was kinda drunk (well ok more then kinda) But while talking she decided she wanted to watch a movie with me. Well my dad was awake so she couldn't come over here so I met her at her house and we watched Tommy Boy.. Well she fell asleep about an hour into it, which is ok cuz I kinda guessed she would seeing as how tired she sounded. The whole time durning the movie though, all I could think about was the past and how much this reminded me of that past. Idk why but that was the happiest I felt in a very long time. If felt likeI knew things would be ok. Well we've been texting since then and I'm really looking forward to this weekend the more I think about it. It should be really fun.

In other news in my life I went and signed up for my classes which I'll start mid May I think. I can change my start date but for now I'm leaving it at that to see what happens with work.

My dad is yet again gonna be gone all week... which blows but nothing I can really do about it cuz god knows we could use the money with the way things have been. Things with my mom are still rough but I guess they will either fix themselves or I'll just have to accept it. I've moved on and realized I can't fix it unless she wants them to be fixed.

I started looking randomly at cars, trucks and motorcycles today, getting an idea of what I want to get when I get to that road. It looks like I prolly won't be able to talk myself outta getting a truck just cuz they look so damn sexy. But maybe by the time I'm ready to get one I can talk myself into a jeep or a car.

Oh I finished a whole sudoku book in like.. 18 hours, not continous of course but still.. 18 hours..

Um that's it for now. Maybe post something tomorrow. For now take care.

Day 1 intro.

So this is the first post.. How cool right? So this blog will be just what the title says. Whatever I decided to right at the time I'll write/type. There will prolly be things to do with sports cuz I'm huge football buff, college and NFL. Which on the note Matt Asiata will be returning for a 6th season thanks the to the NCAA. Which I think is cool because his injury last year stopped him from playing much of the later part of the season. Which will definately help the Utes this season which I think they are the top team in the mountian west this season. Though I still think Boise State will bust the BCS due to the fact that most their starters are returning this year. Should be interesting I say.

Now to touch on the NFL. With the draft coming up and trading underway things are looking a lil interesting. With McNabb going to Washington and the fact Philly is looking for yet another Quater Back even though they have Kevin Kolb and Michael Vick.. why would they really need another Qb? Meh Idk some coaches are weird but who knows. Another interesting sotry is that Minn is looking at the possibilty of Tim Tebow with the 30th pick of the first round. Which would be.. Awesome with me being a Minn fan... That and early reports were they were gonna draft a defensive player.. which makes no sense when they have one of the leagues best defenses. We'll touch on more now because at this moment I'm getting tired. Maybe I'll get on tomorrow and do a better post? :s for Now.. remember that when life gives you lemons, ask for tequila and salt. :) Good night.